FU, BITCH. :|

KYU. BROKE. MY. HEART.

REALLY BADLY.

 

Oh, would you look at the SUN XD

new phone, new sim

because everyone's texting everybody and I'm just so left out. haha. 

I'll still be keeping my old phone number though. <3 

I am always this ugly. yeah. :)

A Selfish Entry.

LEFT OUT. ---> this should've been the tile for this entry but I guess the new one fits better. I thought it over a few times, on how I should write this entry and if I should just flat out say it while being heartless or consider the fact that I'm being a tad bit selfish, because in this entry I AM BEING SELFISH. Is that bad? :|

Well anyway, here I go...

Okay, uhh, I know that me leaving isn't exactly that much of a loss. (Is it?) but they don't really have to RUB IT IN that they don't mind. I don't know if its for real or if I'm just being overly dramatic, but I feel REALLY LEFT OUT. I know they are probably just MOVING ON with their lives, but I just, I still want to belong but it's like every time I'm not with them, the thread is growing thin, I'm afraid that someday, somehow it might actually break. I mean, they might actually FORGET that I exist. Come on, WTF?!

You guys should at least let me feel like I'm still a part of your freakin' lives because obviously to me, you guys are still a big slice of my cake. I LOVE YOU GUYS. maybe even more than how I have loved my previous classmates. but WTH. WHAT THE HECK!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS A TRASHY ENTRY. 

PLEASE DON'T MIND THIS. 

IT'S SELFISH AND STUPID AND I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS. 

Sorry, I am so devastated (not exactly the right word, I suppose) that I can't even bring myself to write about it. 

I will always be a BSN-2J student. St. N or not.

The picture speaks for itself. <3

No bloody chemistry my arse

I FEEL SO ALONE.

Sweet sweet chocolates

I'm craving for something sweet right now. :O

It's been a long day. While I was at the 3rd floor building, I was watching my classmates get in line for the afternoon circle (it's something we nurses do before going to duty) and I was like, calling out their names but nobody heard me. >,>   I didn't know what I felt that time, it was a mixture of "hah! i don't have to do that and stand around and come early to school just for the circle" and another part of me said "aaaw, I want to join them," I was always, always in front. 

Yeah well, anyway. I wonder what the reaction of my previous CI was. hah! I hope she went hypo tachy tachy and all. (insert evil laugh here) oh yeah, and uh, I need to sharpen my communicating skill. To think I was able to talk to a lot of patients since the last semester but I still am very shy and quiet when with new people. ugh. being the new girl sucks. but it also has a few advantages. ;)

I'm like, going to totally shock my new sections. HAH! FOR YOUR INFORMATION, being IRREGULAR does not automatically mean I failed a subject (I'm not THAT dumb) I'm like, the epitome of I'm-afraid-to-fail-that's-why-I'm-studying-my-fucking-ass-off kind of girl, ya know? But nobody knows that yet, so yeah, I'ma kill some hardcore, snotty new classmate's pride. XD

YEAH. I CAN BE BAD ASS.

P.S. Raznim calls me MING. So I'm gonna put a cute little kitty icon as well. :3

OH OH OH. I'm a sucker for emoticons. XD

- lheanna.